I know it isn’t good to have many regrets, but on the flip side, regrets are just a form of mistake, and we have to have mistakes to learn from. Perhaps that is flawed logic however.

I was driving out of the city tonight, after dinner with Elaine and Victor, and was hit with a terrible fear that I was making a huge mistake in moving to North Carolina. Yeah yeah, I can hear ya now, “this is just normal fear”. But I do worry that I am leaving behind a place that I really will miss. Of course, I say that, quite happy about leaving all the things I hate about this place. So, perhaps it is all a wash.

I’ve recently been thinking that perhaps we made a large mis-step in buying this house. I don’t mean financially, it would appear that we made out like bandits in that department. But in terms of location, we probably didn’t look closely enough at the type of neighborhood we bought into. Kids our age shouldn’t buy into “family” neighborhoods, we probably should have rented a flat in the city. As much as that would have pushed me in uncomfortable ways, I would have adapted, and probably had many more interesting experiences. And this isn’t a cop out, I recognize that my experiencs are my own responsbility. But if we had lived somewhere else, I think finding new experience could have been easier, so the threshold would have been lowered.

Oh well, regrets. I’ll get over it soon, and hopefully I’ll learn from it. As for other stuff, we spent today cleaning up the house. Thank god for that, I feel like we’re making decent progress. I finally fixed the leaky kitchen sink drain (it was so easy I’m cursing myself for not having done it years ago).